I needed to share a life-altering story...
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
ENGAGED..
I needed to share a life-altering story...
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
keep my eyes above the waves..
"LINDSAY, the water is almost over your head these days, but you just have to keep looking at Me so it won't go over your head. I've never failed you before, so why would I fail you now...?"
I feel like this is all God is screaming at me right now, this week, the last few weeks maybe... this entire season of my life right now!! EVERY aspect of my life & so many relationships that I am closely connected to are all God testing my faith more than ever these days. To see how I'll come out in the end of this season, if I'm going to just let the water come up over my head & give up or if I'm going to keep looking at Him to keep my head above the water & believe it will be okay, no matter the outcome.
{SPIRIT LEAD ME
WHERE MY TRUST IS WITHOUT BORDERS
LET ME WALK UPON THE WATERS
WHEREVER YOU WOULD CALL ME
TAKE ME DEEPER
THAN MY FEET COULD EVER WANDER
AND MY FAITH WOULD BE MADE STRONGER
IN THE PRESENCE OF MY SAVIOUR...}
Literally every area in my life right now feels very {unknown} regarding the future & days to come, which is how it always is with the future, but it's different this time. Being good or bad outcomes I still have this sense of peace about everything & hope that God is in control no matter the outcomes of certain situations. He already has all the tiniest details worked out & a greater plan for me & everyone around me than {we} could ever imagine.
{WE KNOW THAT ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR GOOD TO THOSE WHO LOVE HIM ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE}
I have a problem with day-dreaming about the future & setting my heart in the future instead of focusing on living HERE in the present.. I started the new year hesitant about anything good coming in the future because {last} year was kind of yucky, but the Sunday before the new year started my pastor talked all about living in the present, not dwelling on the future or being stuck in the past. So since then I've been TRYING my hardest to be content with NOW. I feel like God has been teaching me how to be OK with right now and where He has me for RIGHT now, not setting my heart in the days to come & not setting myself up for disappointment if something doesn't end how I had dreamed or hoped for.
All that ramble to say that God has always had this passage on my heart, but it's more on my heart now because I feel like God is gearing my heart up for the DAYS TO COME now. Even though I'm trying my best to not live in the {future} He's saying "Hey Lindsay YOU NEED STRENGTH from Me to keep your head & heart above the water in the days to come right now.."
{SHE wears STRENGTH & DIGNITY & LAUGHS at the FUTURE}
So with the uncertainty about the days to come & the million of situations of people around me all I can focus on right now is that God is constantly calling me out of the boat & onto the water, even when I think I am about to sink He calls out & says "Keep your eyes on Me & you're not going to sink under the pressure" Even though I'm unsure about the days to come, I know that I still feel peace about it & am covered in the strength of the Lord to keep going & to not give up & to praise Him no matter what the days to come look like................ amen.
{Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. When he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!" Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”
And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”}
Thursday, July 12, 2012
I have to work in a few hours..
Sunday, June 10, 2012
summer...
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Passion push..
"Because I’m missing Passion 2012 a whole, whole lot today I want you to see this video. And I want you to buy a ticket to come next year. I want to see all of your sweet faces!Find out more info about Passion 2013 HERE."
+check out this super cute blog by Nicole:: here.{*spring break is so close I can taste it.. I can't wait.. Luke 11 has been on my mind all week.. to keep knocking, keep praying, keep talking to God about the good, the bad, & the ugly.. how He wants to bless me & grant me what He knows I need.. it's good.}
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
fruit..
love. joy. peace. patience. kindness. goodness. faithfulness. gentleness. self-control.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Friday, February 10, 2012
fill in the blank...
6. My new favorite blogs to read are .. Along the Way.., lowercase letters, & chalk with arrow!!
Monday, January 30, 2012
ten at ten..
1. hardwood floors..every house should have some.
2. french press coffee.
3. paris.. someday
4. being cozy.
5. sun flowers.
6. cute-practical outfits.
7. pesto..I need to make this sandy..yummy.
8. my people..big families are fun!!
9. my boyfriend. {I can't believe I've never put this picture on here before, he's cute!?}
10. being barefoot.. even during winter.
AND...I've never "linked" with another blog before!! check out other "miscellany monday's" via Carissa!!
{pictures via pinterst + my trusty iPhoto}
Thursday, January 26, 2012
product push..
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
great grandma alice..
Sunday, January 15, 2012
desert soul..
Hey God, this is where I'm at {dry, desperate, broken, running, in need of rescue}:
{I LOVE YOU LORD, BUT I WANT TO LOVE YOU MORE
I NEED YOU GOD, BUT I WANT TO NEED YOU MORE
I AM LOST WITHOUT, YOUR CREATIVE SPARK IN ME
I AM DEAD INSIDE, UNLESS YOUR RESURRECTION SAVES
DESPERATE, FOR A DESPERATE HEART
ALL THAT I AM IS DRY BONES, WITHOUT YOU LORD
A DESERT SOUL.
I AM BROKEN BUT RUNNING, TOWARDS YOU GOD,
YOU MAKE ME WHOLE}
*this song has been driving me crazy the last few days because it's basically what's in my heart & head right now, in the form of a song by the rend collective.
PSALM EIGHTY-SIX
Friday, January 13, 2012
twenty-twelve
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
new favorite quote..
"yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift"
{eleanor roosevelt}
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
coming soon to a blog near you..
Thursday, October 27, 2011
day dreaming...
raise a new city out of the wreckage.
they'll start over on the ruined cities,
take the rubble left behind
and make it new.
{isaiah sixty-one}
Monday, October 3, 2011
the heart..
{Therefore you, do not lose heart. Though outwardly you wasting away, yet inwardly you are being renewed day by day. For your light and momentary troubles are achieving for you, an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.}
HE overcame.
Saturday, August 20, 2011
look for less..
Monday, August 1, 2011
ten at ten..
ten things about this {almost over} summer of eleven::
one) twin has been home for a while & it feels like she never even left!
two) my friend became a mrs. & I had fun being a part of her special day!
three) bike rides + a cute basket
four) hot hot heat + tan skin
five) loving on my babies + creating everything under the sun with construction paper
six) learning lots about relationships with people + my relationship with God.
seven) I crossed something off of my list of 30 things to do before I'm 30: #20
eight) fireworks on a rooftop + in a park.
nine) a lot of romans twelve.
ten) a week in nashville: old friends, new friends, seeing God through three sweet little boys, hot & sweaty & getting hands dirty, a homeless man asked me to marry him, sweet little cousins, long bus rides.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
romans 12...
Monday, June 20, 2011
MY TWIN IS ALMOST HOME!!!
This has been the longest we've been apart our whole life & after being glued to each others hips for 21 years we finally were doing life on our own, separately from each other. having separate adventures, meeting people as Lindsay or Courtney not as "twins", & we survived & it was good!! God yet again awe's me by His perfect timing with her & I experiencing life on our own for this past season of our lives, becoming individuals, not just twins, not always having someone to come with us, wait with us, a security blanket always at hand!
I'm stoked to see her. Excited to tell her random things that aren't really that funny, but she listens to anyway, hear her long stories, hear the great things God has done in her heart & life in the last few months, stay up late with her, talk in code, get to know her again, just spend time with her!!
I'm praying, praying, & praying some more that adjusting to being "twins" again goes smoothly & we pick up right where we left off!
This is a rich life I live.. thank God for a weekend full of people that make me smile, cool-summer nights, family, & a lot of veggin'!
Here's to a good start of a long next two months of watching babies everyday, being a twin again, & trying to have a little bit of free time!!
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
ten at ten..
one) Michigan skipped spring, 40's to 90's... I'm digging the hot & sweaty lifestyle the last few weeks!
two) my skin is starting to look sun-kissed & it's not even officially summer yet! Typically it takes at least until the end of July for me to look somewhat tan!!
three) I don't think people understand the craziness of how soon my long lost twin comes home! We're talking two weeks from yesterday!!!!!!!!
*four) The last few days I've been in a funk making me really frustrated, annoyed, & in a bratty mood.. but thankfully it was just a funk, and I'm realizing I'm just really kind of selfish & God is just using circumstances to show me He's in control... not me!
{AND it's just always a punch/slap in the face for me to snap out of because I am SOOOOO spoiled with the life God has given me.. I might not have a million dollars laying around but I'm spoiled & take SO much in this life I've been given for granted wayyyy too easily & I let the feelings of wanting more or not being satisfied get in the way of my thanks/surrendering it all back the One who gave it to me...holla at my mumma for good heart/reality checks.}
five) I've been trying to avoid pants of any sort the last few weeks. Skirts & dresses please! {soon my twin will return home with several dresses waiting for me to borrow..!!}
six) Due to the lack of reliable radio in my car it is obnoxious having to find something to listen to while driving that is not fussy or country music.. so thanks to our friends in the North, CBC Radio 2 has become my new favorite thing in the morning while I drive to work & in the afternoon when I drive home.. I'm obsessed.
seven) I've been dating a pretty sweet guy that I had a crush on for a long time..for seven months now?! It's crazy & makes me happy!
eight) I'm going to Wayne State in the fall {FINALLY!!!!} & one of my sisters roommates is moving out in August.. hmm...
*nine) I've been reading a lot of my old journals lately.. it's SO crazy how different only a year can look from one to the next!?!? Good, bad, ugly, & everything in-between!!!
ten) Hoppipolla by Sigur Ros just came on my iTunes.. I think I will still enjoy this song until I'm 99 years old.
*kind of related: old journals & writing about the good, the bad, & the ugly, being spoiled with this rich life, all kind of correlate.
xox
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Friday, May 27, 2011
who YOU are..
i like organized schedules.
i like to know what's going on!
BUT
i also like spontaneity.
i like organized clutter.
i like lazy-do-nothing-days.
BUT too much of that, is too much!!
i was a very happy girl walking out of my last final exam for school this past semester, planning all my days of sleeping in, doing some yoga when i wanted to, running outside anytime during the day, meeting my boyfriend for lunch, staying up late for no reason, being l-a-z-y because school was done!
{all in this weird stage between me getting out school, not being in any summer classes, & the calm before the storm of watching THREE kids four days a week for the rest of the summer...}
but i've found that too much of this... is NOT good for me. i miss having a regular routine, knowing what my schedule would potentially look like at the beginning of each week! i feel like my whole life is just really REALLY unorganized right now. {in every aspect of the word} i was almost on the verge of a nervous break down this week because i feel like all the disorganization in my life right now, not just my schedule, but my room, my car, my work schedule, the way i'm eating/taking care of myself, all the free time................is all draining me & my relationship with God.
obviously i can't blame all the scatteredness that on my lack of spending time with God, laying down everything in my life for Him, soaking up His words, talking to Him, listening for Him, seeing Him, but the laziness is definitely seeping into my relationship with God & its really frustrating & annoying.
its of course in all these times that God's like: "OK Lindsay, i've been waiting for you to just come spend time with me! you know you can't do anything without Me, I want to give you peace, rest, and make you not feel anxious or frustrated!"
so it made me stop & think & finally get this desire, want back to fight for my relationship with God, that i can't just sit back & let it unfold in front of me & expect it to be useful/beneficial/thriving (there's a word I'm looking for, but I can't put my finger on it!?) like a text from a sweet friend about Galatians 5 & just all around being reminded of who HE is from a desperation band song called who You are..
so now i'm feeling motivated, refreshed, & renewed.. ready to beat this laziness spell with productivity & spending more time with my Maker..
so much goodness & blessing in my life to not spend time giving it all back to Him..
{i feel like i write things like this & they don't make sense, but that's ok, writing is like therapy for me, whether it makes sense or not!} xox
*ps my twin comes home in: 23ish days.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
overcome...
{I just posted the song Take Heart by Hillsong, but I stole the order of these words from that song}
...troubles, tears, HOPE, failure, fear, LOVE, heartache, pain, HEALER, burdens, shame, FREEDOM, JUSTICE, GRACE, REFUGE, STRENGTH:: HE has o v e r c o m e.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
courtney..
I BURST INTO TEARS LITERALLY CRYING OUT TO GOD TO HAVE HIS HAND OVER HER MORE THAN EVER RIGHT NOW, AS SHE GOES INTO A PART OF THAILAND IN THE NEXT FEW DAYS TO SPEND A MAJORITY OF THE REMAINDER OF HER TRIP WHERE SEX TRAFFICKING IS AT A HIGH & WHERE THE PEOPLE OF THAILAND DO NOT LIKE OR TRUST ANY AMERICANS DUE TO THE FACT THAT THEIR ONLY EXPERIENCE WITH "AMERICANS" ARE A SELECT FEW DISGUSTING HUMAN BEINGS WHO CALL THEMSELVES MEN WHO COME TO STEAL INNOCENCE & TREAT OTHER HUMAN BEINGS LIKE OBJECTS FOR THEIR OWN PLEASURE.
SO I HAVE A PLEA FOR PRAYER.
I BELIEVE IN THE POWER OF PRAYER.
I BELIEVE IN A GOD WHO HEARS HIS CHILDREN WHEN THEY CALL.
I NEED HIS CHILDREN TO PRAY WITH ME.
FOR MY SISTER.
FOR MY TWIN.
MY OTHER HALF.
ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD.
GOING INTO UTTER DARKNESS TO SPREAD THE HOPE & REAL, GENUINE LOVE OF JESUS CHRIST.
GOD HAS BEEN SO GOOD TO HER IN THE ALMOST WHOLE YEAR SINCE THE BEGINNING OF HER ADVENTURE:: HER FIRST APPLYING FOR YWAM, GETTING ACCEPTED, RAISING MONEY, AND MORE MONEY, AND THEN SOME MORE MONEY, KEEPING HER SAFE, HEALTHY, ALL AROUND GREAT. TEACHING HER NEW THINGS. SHAPING HER HEART.
SO I WOULD BE LYING IF I SAID I WASN'T SCARED FOR HER. WORRIED FOR HER. ANXIOUS FOR HER. WISHING I COULD PROTECT HER.
SHE & THE REST OF HER TEAM NEED PRAYER, I NEED PRAYER, THE PEOPLE THEY'LL BE MEETING/FORMING RELATIONSHIPS WITH NEED PRAYER.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
overwhelm {me}...
soak up some truth & goodness...
The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,
to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of joy
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the LORD
for the display of his splendor.
{isaiah sixty-one}
{Grace never ending
Your hands they carry me
Your body is broken
for all the world to see
my heart is held
by love so unconditional
You captivate me
let Your spirit overwhelm me
let Your presence overtake my heart...}
{picture, totally unrelated:: just r-e-a-l-l-y missing my twin right now..
it has officially been the longest we've gone without communication.}