overwhelm {me}...

I should be finishing my homework right now... but Isaiah 61 & I Want to know You by Jesus Culture are distracting me, making me want to jump up & down::

soak up some truth & goodness...

The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners,
to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of joy
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the LORD
for the display of his splendor.
{isaiah sixty-one}

{Grace never ending
Your hands they carry me
Your body is broken
for all the world to see
my heart is held
by love so unconditional
You captivate me
let Your spirit overwhelm me
let Your presence overtake my heart...}

{picture, totally unrelated:: just r-e-a-l-l-y missing my twin right now..
it has officially been the longest we've gone without communication.}

ouch..

"I can't stand your religious meetings.

I'm fed up with your conferences and conventions.
I want nothing to do with your religion projects,
your pretentious slogans and goals.
I'm sick of your fund-raising schemes,
your public relations and image making.
I've had all I can take of your noisy ego-music.
When was the last time you sang to me?
Do you know what I want?
I want justice—oceans of it.
I want fairness—rivers of it.
That's what I want. That's all I want."

...amos five:twentyone-twentyfour
{the message}

Valley's speak wonders of Your name...

I am not typically up this late.. but homework keeps me awake to wee hours of the morning. Recently I haven't minded it as much, until my eye lids finally can't take it anymore & fail to stay open, then I hear my phone beckoning me to wake up only a couple hours later and do all the craziness all over again the next day...

BUT while attempting to finish a ridiculous outline (*I HATE outlines.), quietly I'm playing this crazy huge "Worship" playlist on my iTunes. The wind outside is blowing like I haven't heard in a really long time. My heart beats a little faster each time I hear it get louder & louder, then its calm for a few minutes.

Back to this playlist.. there are a select few worship songs that are the goose bumps,
"holy cow, God thanks for sending this song my way RIGHT now", kind of worship song. Whether the lyrics, the melody & harmony of the song, or just how a certain lyrics fit right into where I'm at, at a certain time...

I think that what makes this song ten times better for right now at 2am, is that in the middle of the night I feel my God speaking to me & feel raw & in need of Him, to talk to Him about how good or bad my past day was, talk to Him about what is on my heart, cry out to Him for guidance, peace, & REST. And just in the first few lines of the song that say:

LORD, YOU SEARCH ME, YOU KNOW ME, YOU HEAR ALL MY THOUGHTS, NO POINT IN HIDING.. (I can't really think of anywhere I could go right now at 2am to escape..)LORD YOU FOUND ME, SO COMPLETELY IN NEED OF YOU! I CAN'T RUN FROM YOU!

THIS song. Is one of those songs. I first heard it a few weeks ago when it first came out. And I appreciate small things relating to music and worship music even more, because its a direct connection/prayer to my Creator. So it makes me smile that 1. it is a female voice singing, 2. the words are "whoa", 3. I feel like the words can relate to me a little bit more & more everyday in this season of my life, on the edge of a new adventure, learning patience, & constantly being reminded that I really can't run from God! 4.I could listen to it over & over & over again, 5. I could go through & dissect every lyric to this song, but I think a lot of it speaks for itself....

Lord you search me.
And you know me.
You hear all of my thoughts
No point in hiding
Lord you found me
So completely in need of You
I cannot run from You

If I go to the heavens or down below,
You are right there waiting
If I rise on the wings of the dawn
You are there, I will find You waiting

You are in the highest place
You are in the falling rain
You are in the mountain peaks
And valleys speak wonders of Your name
You are in the perfect sky
You are in every breath I breathe
You are in every moment life seems to pass me by
You are my Prince of Peace

In the glory of Your glory
I become like You are, it’s overwhelming
In the presences of your presences,
I finally see all Your love for me

If I go to the heavens or down below,
You are right there waiting
If I rise on the wings of the dawn
You are there, I will find you waiting

You are in everything
You’re in every part, it all ends and starts with You my King
You’re everything, You are in everything

-Highest Place, Desperation Band-

w o r s h i p GOD...

Wor·ship·ing: verb show reverence and adoration for (a deity); honor with religious rites...
Ad⋅o⋅ra⋅tion: noun the act of paying honor, as to a divine being; worship.

I realize that as a Christian I can worship my Creator through everything in my life. I think that I connect with my Creator a lot though, through musical worship. That is why Hillsong DVD's make me smile, Lighthouse makes me excited, & my worship playlist(s) on iTunes make my ears feel good...

So I am watching the This Is Our God DVD from Hillsong with my twin. I have watched it several times but, typically I play it while I am doing something else and not actually watch it, or just listen to it. I just watched it. Start to finish (even the twenty some minute long ending of "With Everything"). I watched the people in the DVD, worship God. I watched the people on stage, worship God. I watched the people in the DVD, cry out & raise their hands in surrender to God

As much as I love being a in the audience in corporate (musical) worship, I do love to watch people worship God (in a non-creepy way of course). This is what I love about it...

1. People raising their hands in surrender to our God.
2. People freely worshiping God.
3. People crying out to God.
4. People closing their eyes to keep from distraction or in prayer to our God.
5. People talking to God.
6. People on their knees before our King...

....

¹ Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth.

² Worship the LORD with gladness;
come before him with joyful songs

--Psalm 100:1 & 2

"We bow our hearts, we lift our hands
we turn our eyes to You again
And we surrender to the truth
that all we need is found in You
Receive our adoration Jesus Lamb of God
Receive our adoration, how wonderful You are..."

--Adoration, Brenton Brown.

*celebrate His death & rising...

Chris has died & Christ is risen,
Christ will come again..
.Celebrate his d e a t h and r i s i n g
Lift your eyes, proclaim his coming
Celebrate his d e a t h and r i s i n g
Lift you eyes, lift your eyes . .

--Charlie Hall, Mystery.

*never let me go...

i have a tendency to try to go to bed "early" every once in a while... key word try.

so while i am sitting here still wide-eyed i have this crazy long worship playlist playing on random. the song never let me go by hillsong just came on... God definitely picked this one out just for me for right now.

In the shadows; My spirit weak
Love broke through the darkness and lifted me
And I know you'll never let me go

In the storm in the raging sea
Love conquered the fear and delivered me
And I know you'll never let me go

Oh love in the shadows
Be the light who leads me on
Your love I will follow
Be my guide, Your will be done
Oh Lord

In the arms of the One unseen
Love carried the cross that was meant for me

And I know you'll never let me go

Oh Lord I surrender, now forever I'll be loved
In the love of the Father, You are faithful You are strong
So hold me now

Nothing in this life has walked these streets
Love opened my eyes show me what You see
And I know I'll never let You go...

lately i have been feeling like my spirit has been weak & dry. i totally needed to hear that Love breaks through all of this darkness, weak spiritedness, & dryness all the time to remind me that He is always waiting for me to come back to Him and let Him fill me up...

my God is a jealous God and typically when i feel like my heart it dry, my spirit is weak, or i'm not where i want to be in walk with Him, then i haven't had all of my attention on Him.

my attention drifts away. my God falls down a spot on my list of priorities, i make myself too "busy" with things that don't matter. while He belongs at the number one spot on my list of priorities....whatever those priorities are.

the farther i let Him fall down my list, the weaker i get, the dryer my heart becomes, the more i forget how much i need Him. but when He becomes the top priority, the number one thing, then all other priorities no longer seem important. LOVE OPEN MY EYES, SHOW ME WHAT YOU SEE. I KNOW I'LL NEVER LET YOU GO. [and when i do let You go, break through and lift me back up to You...]

although i am so undeserving...Love, the One unseen, my God, my Father, loves me, He holds me, He never lets go of me. in good times or in bad, when He is number one of my list or priorities, or when i have put Him as number two or number seventy-two, in the morning, in the afternoon, or in the middle of the night...

*now i feel like i can go to sleep.............

[photo credit: parker young.]

*here i stand r e s o l v e d.

i so badly want to sit down & write about this past weekend at the WSM retreat. (Resolved). but i only have time to give a quick version of all that went down. God is so good & moved in so many hearts from the youngest sixth grader to the oldest volunteer that came to help out!! in the past week or so God has even done so much in me, just taking my burnt out, stressed out heart, and then putting me on that retreat, and taking my bad attitude & changing it to a heart ready to serve & a heart softened to the word of God. it was so just so refreshing & just let me throw all these things that don't even matter aside & see how amazing my God is & how much He can move in the lives of almost 400 people in just the matter of a few days. :)

*My God, My God, thank YOU for such a wonderful weekend. Not that it was about us, but that it was about YOU. Thank YOU for stirring in the hearts of everyone who heard Jason speak or heard Eric & company lead worship, thank YOU for those times. Just be with everyone who was on that retreat that what they took away from camp, they will always remember & hold YOU close to them when they need courage to do something huge for YOU. Give them courage & a willingness to do what YOU are calling them to resolve in their lives. YOU are so good to us, YOU love us so much, YOU deserve everything & more.

-amen

*here is my heart, You can have it all...

I JUST WANT TO FALL MORE & MORE & MORE & MORE IN LOVE WITH THIS MAN, THAT IS PURSUING ME, WAITING FOR ME, AND LONGING FOR ME TO RUN INTO HIS ARMS.

I WANT TO SEE HIM IN EVERYTHING I DO, SEE HIM EVERYWHERE I GO.

I WANT TO HAVE DATES WITH HIM, SPEND MORE QUALITY TIME WITH HIM.

I WANT TO RELY ON HIM FOR ANYTHING & EVERYTHING.

I WANT TO PLACE ALL OF MY TRUST, HOPE, & FAITH IN HIM ONLY.

I WANT TO WORSHIP HIM, EVERYDAY.

I WANT TO GET TO REALLY KNOW HIM.

I WANT TO BE MORE LIKE HIM.

I WANT TO JUST GET EXCITED WHEN I HEAR HIS NAME OR I HEAR SOMEONE TALK ABOUT HIM.

I WANT TO FALL ON MY FACE IN FRONT OF HIM IN PRAISE FOR ALL THAT HE HAS DONE & IS GOING TO DO IN MY LIFE.

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it is so strange to me that i have grown up in the church, sunday morning, sunday night, wednesday night, vbs, camp, retreats, missions trips...

and i am just coming to that realization that HE really is all i need. HE really is madly in love with me. HE really does want me to hang out with him. HE really does want me to talk to him the moment i wake up in the morning. HE does want me to run to him. HE does want me to love him with all that is inside of me.

it just kills me that all along i have know these truths, i just have not acted upon them.

i want my relationship with HIM to be real, genuine, & authentic. i don't want it to be a sunday thing or a wednesday night thing. i want it to be an everyday thing.

i am so thankful for HIS mercy, HIS grace, HIS patience with me.

i feel like since about june (july maybe) i have been doing all that i can to try to keep up with my devos, talk to HIM more, grow closer to HIM, and get to realllly know HIM. then once school started in the fall i just got frustrated and gave up much to easily, and inside knew that i was not where i wanted to be in my relationship with HIM, but would still wear this mask that i had everything together, and that i was head over heals for HIM. but really deep down inside i was waiting for this. tonight was the night. it finally clicking, that i do desire to run to HIM & desire to really fall in love with HIM.

although i have known about HIM since i can remember, i just never grasped the desire to cling to HIM in every area of my life. i feel like it has taken me the last nineteen years of growing up in a christian home to fully understand and grasp the concept that HE is who HE is. HE is really sitting here with me.

i guess it has just taken this long, because my eyes have been not as open as they could have been. and that is why i am so thankful for HIS grace & HIS mercy, because HE has been waiting for me. patiently. even though i have spent so many years hearing HIM call my name, and not responding. well i'm done with that. i'm done with ignoring HIM.

i know its not going to be, and no one ever said it would be easy, but i don't want to go another day without talking to HIM, spending time with HIM. but i dont want to give up like i have in the past, give up spending time with HIM, or talking to HIM, i just want to do it.

it makes my heart sad that it has taken me so long to realize how real this true love really is. but it makes me smile that i am starting to grasp and fully understand how much HE really has done for me and how much i have neglected and not attended to my relationship with HIM.

but with HIM there are second, third, fourth, one-hundredth, chances that each time i get away from HIM, HE just whispers in my ear, for me to come back to HIM, because i am nothing without HIM, and i deserve to do nothing other than praise & worship HIM for all that HE has done for me, to live freely.

just from writing this, makes me feel so free. makes me feel like i want to just talk to HIM for the rest of the night & thank HIM for everything that HE is doing in me right now.

"I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT YOU

LIKE YOU'RE NOT IN THE ROOM

I WANT TO LOOK RIGHT AT YOU

I WANT TO SING RIGHT TO YOU"

-you won't relent, chris quilala & kim walker.

"YOU", "HE", "HIM", "TRUE LOVE".

my GOD. my JESUS. my FATHER. my LOVER.

all i need.

*hey 2 0 0 9!

Well it has been two-thousand-and-nine for a week now, and I've been thinking a lot since. I've been trying to simplify where I was this time last year and think about changes or differences that have taken place since this time last year.

In January of 2008, I was just under six months away from graduating from high school, I worked, a lot, I was at church a lot, I had a car, I lived in a different house. Reading in my personal journal from this time last year, I had just accepted the idea that I would most likely be staying home for college, I wanted to be a business major or a psychology major, I was deciding if I wanted to go to Camp Barnabas or West Virginia with WSM, and my top three goals for the year were the same as they always and still are.

1. Get to really know God more, fall more & more in love with Him

2. Take better care of my diabetes

3. Be more healthy all in all.

*For the first goal, I think that I did pretty good with really getting to know my Jesus more and really fell in love with Him during the year. Until about September-ish of 2008, I felt like I was at a stand still in my relationship with my Jesus, and I really do not know why. I definitely have come out of that season with Him though! Which I am so thankful for. With a combo or Lighthouse, being involved with Kairos, being a leader for WSM this year, and just all around digging deeper into God's word and relying more and more on Him, I have just found comfort, joy, peace, and satisfaction with my Father, my Creator, my God. And just that, makes me smile.

*My second goal for 2008, I am still trying to do in 2009. I have come to the conclusion that since I have had diabetes for almost eleven years now, that I have become what I call a "lazy diabetic". I have found ways to become lazy with taking care of my diabetes. And since I take care of it on my own and do not really have someone telling me when to check my blood sugar or when to take my shot, I just kind of do my own thing. That has to stop. This year. For good. I guess it just really hit me since the fall time that as a result of me not taking the best care of my diabetes as I can, that I am hurting myself for the long run. The effects of constant high blood sugar is anywhere from major kidney problems, eye problems and in some cases blindness, bad circulation to my feet, and a slew of other things, and I would love to have a family of my own someday and if I don't take care of myself now, then how will I except to have my own kids, if I have problems like that. So it was definitely a wake up call for me this last fall, and it is not the most fun thing to do, but I do have a chronic illness, that is manageable, so its up to me to manage it.

*This last one, I would say I did alright with. All I do pretty much to keep myself healthy is run and attempt to eat healthy, but typically the running is the only thing that stays consistent. Not saying that I ran near as much as I could have during this past year, I did go running more than I thought I would. I enjoy it, I enjoy how I feel when I run, and I do love the feeling I get after I run. If only I could make myself get out there and do it more, then I'd be doing good. So we'll also be working on that again this year :)

*Since January 2008, I indeed did graduate from High School!! I went to West Virginia with WSM for a week to serve the people down there. My car and my phone died in 2008. I finally got a MacBook in 2008, and a new iPod, but lost the iPod...sad day. I technically "graduated" from WSM, but I have had the opportunity to continue to work as a co-leader for a fabulous group of junior girls, I love it! And I am pretty sure I do not want to be a business major anymore, which is still shocking to me, because that was something I wanted to do, to work in the music business scene and whatnot, but now I am 99% sure I am going into early elementary education, and possibly getting a child psychology type degree as well!

Pretty much, those are still my top three things I would like to develop and pursue more in this next new year. I want to continue to see God in everything, continue to pursue Him, continue to be in His word, and continue to seek Him everyday. I also just want to continue to let God open doors for me, show me where He wants me to go, and do. Conquer this disease called Juvinille Diabestes, and run more :). And I want to LOVE people more. Be there for people who need me. Be a better daughter, sister, and friend to the people in my life. And I want to just all around look more like Christ....

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OK, enough of the new year. Check out this passage from Lighthouse on Sunday....

PSAML 37:3-4

"TRUST THE LORD AND DO GOOD; DWELL IN THE LAND AND ENJOY SAFE PASTURE.

DELIGHT YOURSELF IN THE LORD AND HE WILL GIVE YOU THE DESIRES OF YOUR HEART."

mmm, I just love the comfort from these two verses. Although so many times I think "God, I am trusting in You and doing good, I am not getting the desires of my heart". I have learned a lot since the summer that God's timing is all that matters, not mine. God will bless me in His own time, as long as I am trusting in Him, and seeking Him always, then He indeed will give me the desires of my heart, in His own time. And I love that.

Also I do love music, worship music especially. And at Lighthouse on Sunday we sang a song called "Your Love Never Fails", by a group called Jesus Culture, its a conference I guess, I do not know that much about it (but it totally just came on & it made me very excited). The words in the song are crazy. Here are the lyrics, I think that the bridge at the end is my favorite line of the whole song. YOU MAKE ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR MY GOOD. How amazing is a God that wants the BEST for ME!?

"Nothing can separate
Even if I ran away
Your love never fails

I know I still make mistakes, but
You have new mercy for me everyday
Your love never fails

You stay the same through the ages
Your love never changes
There may be pain in the night
But joy comes in the morning
And when the oceans rage
I don’t have to be afraid
Because I know that you love me
And your love never fails

The wind is strong and the water’s deep, but
I’m not alone here in these open seas
Cause your love never fails

The chasm was far too wide
I never thought I’d reach the other side
But your love never fails

You make all things, work together for my good"

*the rest of the album is equally great. You should check it out.

*this is our G o d.

"FREELY YOU GAVE YOUR LIFE FOR US

SURRENDERED YOUR LIFE UPON THAT CROSS

GREAT IS THE LOVE

POURED OUT FOR ALL

THIS IS OUR GOD

LIFTED ON HIGH FROM DEATH TO LIFE

FOREVER OUR GOD IS GLORIFIED

SERVANT & KING

RESCUED THE WORLD

THIS IS OUR GOD."

*this is our God, hillsong.

*read, & soak it up....

"God moves in a MYSTERIOUS way,

His wonders to perform;
He plants his FOOTSTEPS in the sea,
And RIDES upon the STORM.

Deep in unfathomable mines
Of never failing skill,
He TREASURES up his BRIGHT DESIGNS,
And WORKS his sovereign WILL.

Ye fearful saints, fresh COURAGE take,
The clouds ye so much dread
are big with MERCY, and shall break
In BLESSINGS on your head.

Judge not the Lord by feeble sense,
But TRUST him for his GRACE;
Behind a frowning providence,
He hides a smiling face.

His purposes will ripen fast,
Unfolding every hour;
The BUD may have a BITTER taste,
But SWEET will be the FLOWER.

Blind unbelief is sure to err,
And scan his work in vain;
God is his own interpreter,
And he will make it plain.

(In his own time, in his own way)"

--William Cowper

*we sang this song a while back at lighthouse & the words amaze me, it is a poem that was written by William Cowper, and Jeremy Riddle put it to music...

*its over my head...

"Lost for the words to say

I'm left here in disarray

Waiting for You, waiting on truth

I've thrown reason overboard

Knowing that there's still more

I don't yet believe, I can't even perceive

I can't seem to understand

Can't seem to find my way

It's over my head, it's over my head

Learning this mystery

Trust what I cannot see

It's over my head, it's over my head

The wonder of all You've made

Foundations Your hands have laid

Bringing me back to my knees, to my knees

I'm lost for the words to say

Lost for another way

Bringing me back to my knees, to my knees

I'm lost for the words to say

Lost for another way

Ruined for anything other than Your love

I'm desperate to know You, Lord

Desperate for what's in store

Finding my hope in only You, in only You

Take me beyond this door

Lead me to something more

Open my heart up for more of You, more of You---"

(starfield, 'over my head')

*i love every word in this portion of this song, but some of the lines just ring true in so many situations. lately i have been relating to these lines in particular...

[Learning this mystery / Trust what I cannot see / It's over my head]

*i feel like everyday that i grow in my relationship with Christ, i find more that boggles my mind, or is hard to understand, "this mystery". but then i have to "trust when i cannot see". with all the mysteries of our Creator we have to be able to trust in Him, in things seen and unseen....

*i am not, but i know I AM....

*this is exactly what i needed this week, our kairos group just met for the last time for the semester & we finished the book "i am not, but i know I AM" by Louie Giglio. you should grab a copy, its loaded with some really great things! (so the following is from the book, i hope you enjoy it & get as much out of it as i did!)....

i need hope.

I AM.

who could possibly be smart enough to figure this out?

I AM.

what works?

I AM.

what's the latest thing?

I AM.

what's the hippest thing?

I AM.

i need a fresh start.

I AM.

i need a bigger story.

I AM.

my vision is bigger than my resources.

I AM.

nothing is real anymore.

I AM.

who can i trust?

I AM.

i'm not sure who's on my team.

I AM.

nobody's listening to me.

I AM.

i don't have a prayer.

I AM.

my marriage is sinking.

I AM.

my kids deserve more.

I AM.

i'm pouring into others, who's pouring into me?

I AM.

if we fail, who will get the job done?

I AM.

i'm not sure why i'm here

I AM.

i'm tired.

I AM.

i quit!

I AM.

i can't!

I AM.

i need a drink.

I AM.

i need a fix.

I AM.

i need a lover.

I AM.

somebody just hold me.

I AM.

"And what does this great I AM say of Himself? He says to you and to me: 'I am the resurrection and the life. I am Savior. I am Jesus--the solution, the restorer, the builder, the answer, the Wise One, the Coming One, the Mighty One. I am the Lord and there is no other. I am God and there is none besides Me. I am the FIrst and the Last. I am Alpha and Omega. I am the Beginning and the End. I am the Lord, that is My name, and I will not give My glory to another, or any of My praise to idols. I AM THAT I AM, and that is My name--My memorial name to every single generation.'"

--Louie Giglio

*e n d of j u l y into a u g u s t....

the past few weeks have flown by & im still trying to wrap my arms around everything that i have been doing and whats been going on!

delbarton, west virginia
red caboose
melissa edwards
bobbie edwards & his southern gospel music
oil based paint
curvy winding roads
hemp button braclets
7/11
moose bar
youth works
ogga-boogga-bera-cooda
packing lunches
snakes
three o'clock showers
white water rafting
jumping off a twenty foot rock into the river
swimming down a rapid
end of forty
watershed
new hillsong album
worship
prayer
praises
desires
dreams
future
prayer room
journal
realizations

----->you should go grab a copy of the new hillsong cd...its called 'this is our God'

*r a m b l i n g s...

love
peace
hope
kindness
surrender
brokenness
worship
prayer
scripture
journaling
future
life

"You are the highest
You are the greatest
You are the Lord of all
Angels will worship
Nations will bow down
To the Lord of all..."

*forty...

*so i got my macbook yesterday! so exciting! so i am sitting here typing away on it!!! anyway that is besides the point of what i was going to write about.....

40 started on sunday at nine. and since then i have heard nothing but amazing things about it. i was bummed at the beginning of the week though because i signed up for my prayer hours late, so i only got a few towards the end of it, but today emily had some time so she said court & i could come with her! 

it was so overwhelming. just walking in just takes your breath away because you see prayers, praises, desires, and worship written on the black walls in silver marker from floor to ceiling, there is a world map with pins in areas that have been are being prayed for, there is an area for people to express themselves and their hearts on paper with water colors and colored pencils, there is a cross in the back corner with candles around where we laid before it and prayed, there is an area to sit in the middle of it all where emily, courtney, and i shared our hearts and tears with each other and the Lord, being able to pray out loud and for so long with them was such a blessing.

towards the end of everyones hour in the prayer room, you are to read a selected passage from the Bible out loud, since sunday the group as a collective has gotten up to Numbers 22, well that was since three this afternoon, but someone is in there at the moment that will read more or the Bible out loud continuing up until the last hour when the whole Bible will have been read out loud, i think that is one of my favorite parts of the room, there are large margins on the sides so people can write their personal notes and input on the scripture that they read. 

whew. ok that was really long, but i just had to share about it because it was such an awesome opportunity to be a part of and i have some more time in the next month so im pretty excited about it. another highlight of it was when emily, court, and i blasted the song "how he loves us" and sang it at the top of our lungs in worship to our amazing Creator that was so apparent in that room. 

in the last five minutes we were in there we played the song "i will go" by the desperation band and went to the part that they recite the passage from isaiah "here i am Lord, send me, send me" which is kind of one of the main points around 40 as a whole. i just wish that everyone everywhere could experience their own 40. 40 days & 960 hours of continuous prayer, service, worship, and fasting.... 
*isaiah 6:1-8